it has been over a month since we’ve entered self-isolation or whatever this thing we’re living is, and i must admit; keeping a productive schedule and accomplishing my goals of the day has become pretty hard.
the first two weeks were just GREAT. i woke up early, did my college assignements, read books, even wrote some post ideas here and there and watched a whole show (elite, if you want to know). but here we are, five weeks into self-isolation, and i feel like my productivity rate is slowly getting lower. there doesn’t seem to be a specific reason for that, except for maybe the fact that i keep repeating the same things every day without seeing an aim for it, or the fact that i don’t see the end of all of this anymore…
my productivity is drained, my creativity nowhere near existent right now. i am very aware of the fact that i don’t necessarly have to be productive or creative because the pressure of everything happening in the world is very real, and certainly not only on me, but still. i keep hearing this voice inside my head telling me that i have to do more. (the voice have been here forever, but a little more present during times like these where i do a lot of thinking.)
i think that i’m not the only one who feels this way, that’s why i decided to write this small post as a reminder to myself and especially to you, dear reader, that you do not need to be extremely productive during this time. society tricks us into thinking that we are valued by how much we do, and it’s hard to believe otherwise, since it’s so rooted in us. but mental health is very important too, and self-isolation is hard, even if “you’re only asked to stay home”. because we’re not only asked that, but we’re asked to stay away from people we love, change our routines, and live every day like a sunday, which, as easy it may seem, becomes exhausting.
i do not hope to be more productive, but to be more accepting of what i do in my day. i have not messed up my sleeping schedule yet, at least there’s that. it is okay if i just take care of my physical and mental health, and have fun here and there.
everything will be okay 🙂